Why don't we go to church?
Why don't I belive the words that I share with people?
Why can't I give everything whole heartly to god and just let go?
I never consistantly went to church as a kid, I went from time to time with friends but I never went with my family. So when it comes to god I'm a little overwhelmed, I really want to learn but the Bible is intimidating.
I'm so OCD that I have a problem with giving someone else control. I try to allow others to do things for me or offer things but I think to myself will it be as good as I can do it? I guess that is why I have lost some friendships, sorry I guess this is my character flaw.
I guess my fear boils down to not being accepted or understood.
I'm trying to change this, but my anxiety has been at an all time high thinking about it. So I'm taking one day at a time, I will try my best everyday to be a better Daughter, Wife, Mother, Friend and Follower of God. I will choose my words and advice more wisely, and I will love with out opinion.
2012 has me thinking about many things. This is first on my list to work on and fix.
Best of all, my hubby is on the same page and wants to do the same. I love that we are both on the same page in life and in our marriage.
Heres to a new Chapter in the Schaefer 4 book of life.
Cheers everyone,
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