Not sure how to feel

So lately I have been down in the dumps, nearly emotionless. I miss my hair, I'm pissed that people dont understand, I hate that it takes a toll on my family, and I hate that it is taking a toll on other parts of me. I'm normally happy, creative, and driven. Well lately I have been pissy, lazy, and idealess. I'm going to a wig shop in Dallas this coming Saturday to see what we need to do to get me a wig. The biggest factor is going to be the cost, I can't exactly shell out $1000 for one, that just isnt possible. I want a real hair wig so I can style it and do many different things. I dream about long pig tail braids. LOL

I dont know if I just need some more mommy time or what but I feel like I yell and am unhappy constantly. Everyone will tell me well go talk to someone about it. Well that costs money and yeah that isnt going to happen right now. LOL. So I'm just stuck in this rut and I hate it.

I guess most of my saddness is due to my mommy guilt. I want to be able to take Trenton to school and to pick him up everyday. I hate that I'm missing out on that special time with him. I dont have a choice right now though.

Sorry to be Debbie Downer today but that is my mood.