February is normally a super happy Month for me. I usually call it my Birthday Month and enjoy each and every day of it. Well this year it seems different to me. It isn't the age thing that is getting to me it is work and my strong urge to home with my sweet boys. That isn't in the cards for my sweet family right now, and I know the eduation they are both getting and will be getting (they are moving to Primrose Hickory Creek in June) is great and very important. I just feel lost I guess, I love my family more than anything in this world, I love my sewing business, but there is something missing and it isnt my hair. LOL.
On a "hair" note, I do have some growth but just not where I want it. I'm starting to grow stubble on my knees and arm pits again. Who knows if it will stay but it does give me hope of some day growing my eyebrows and eye lashes back at least.
Maybe my down feelings are because I'm not sure if we want to expand our family further or not. Just days after having Jack I had the urge that I wasn't done and that I didn't feel complete. After 18 months my answer has changed back and forth a few times. I feel complete and ready to start a new chapter and saving for family vacations but then that all changes in a second when I think about well what about adding a brother/sister to the mix. Maybe I'm just having baby fever since my best friend is prego. Who knows. We will see what God's plan is and go from there.
So yeah my birthday is in 7 days so I guess I will update again between now and then.
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